The Beginning of the End.

As alcoholics and addicts are confronted with life spinning out of control, its common for them to wish for things to be like they used to be...
The following song is a good example.  Enjoy while you are reading the rest of the post.

 What a great song and how true.  Life was getting crazier and crazier and I really didn't know it.  I was too busy trying to fix it.  One week in late October 2010, my mom called me on the phone.  After a little chit chat, she just blurted out, "Why don't you love me anymore".  Well that pretty much finished me off.  I just lost complete control over the phone, crying and hanging up on her.  Not really sure what I said.  I was just emotionally spent and it hit me hard and hurt.

Five minutes later, my brother called and wanted to know if I was ok and did he need to come out.  Mom had called him crying.  I said no, I am all right.

Five minutes after that, my baby sister called and wanted to know if I was alright.  Wanting to come out and see me.  I told her I was ok and she didn't need to come.  Mom had called her very upset and worried about me.

About 15 minutes later, my sister that is only two years younger than me, shows up at my front door.  All the hiding was done for.  She came in and talked to me and then to my wife.  My wife was curled up in bed and looking very ill.  My sister started asking about alcohol and it was pretty obvious, not much to deny.

Well, my sister left, but the genie was out of the bottle. I knew then that something had to be done that alcohol had begun to dominate my life.

I met Jared's mother. She came to see him in rehab.  She loved that boy with all her heart and you could tell that she was just scared.  I watched them interact.  Jared was very protective of his mom and worried about her a great deal.  Jared and I had many conversations about our families and how drugs and alcohol had affected the family.  I truly believed that Jared wanted to change.  Jared's demons were just too much for him.  He was having a real problem getting that Higher Power thing. 

My next post will tell about the week leading up to my intervention.  Crazy....

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Mike