Doctor My Eyes

This song means a lot to me and my trip through rehab.  It was about Wednesday, about 7 days into rehab that I was struggling with this whole idea.  I didn't want to give up control and I was fighting it.  Listen to the song.

You will miss the blessing if you don't listen to the lyrics.  This Wednesday, we were having discussions about readings in the "Big Book", the bible for Alcoholics Anonymous.  This book was written in 1939 and some of the reading were pretty mysterious.  I have been an insurance man for most of my adult life and words and definitions always were important to me.  We were reading "The Doctor's Opinion" at the front of the book.  Towards the end of this opinion the doctor talked about "moral psychology" and I wanted and insisted to know just what that meant.  This was to be my last stand.  Somebody explain it to me.  Neither the counselors nor the rest of the group were doing much to convince me just what that passage meant.  I mean, if you can't explain something to me in the front of the book, why go any further.  The best that the group could come up with is something that you hear a lot in Alcoholics Anonymous.  "Keep It Simple".  Well, at this point that wasn't just good enough for me.  I was feeling pretty proud of myself for stumping the crowd.  I had proved to myself that there was nothing here for me.  Like I said it was my last stand.
That night we go to Bouldin Avenue, oh my..
The words to the last verse are:
Doctor My Eyes
Cannot see the Sky
Is this the Price for having learned how not to cry.
This is the plight of many alcoholics and drug addicts.  They have internalized their  pain and won't let it out.  No one is allowed to go there.  But as I would find out, this is the real beauty of Alcoholics Anonymous.
Mike