Well, I was pretty aggravated that no one was answering the phone when I called. Just couldn't understand what was going on. Picked this song for the one line, "If I can't leave here, I just might stay". That is the way that I was feeling about a week into rehab.
God was dealing with me on one hand, but my family had just decided to leave me here. I figured that I would get back at them. I revoked all the HIPPA permissions that I gave when I got to rehab. If they weren't going to talk to me, I would fix them. They would have no way to contact me. They could just leave a phone number. Like the song said, I just figured that if I couldn't leave the place that I might just as well stay and make the most of it. Resentments, I would learn are very harmful to everyone, especially alcoholics.
About an hour after I gave my counselor the revocation of my HIPPA privileges, he came to me with the news that my wife had been transported to the hospital in Houston and was very sick. That was one of the worst moments in rehab for me. I felt entirely helpless. I tore up the paper and gave back my HIPPA rights to my family. I cried for a while and then I prayed. God was the only way for me to get through this. And then like the serenity prayer for alcoholics, God did grant me serenity. This would help me get through rehab, cause most bad things were coming.
Mike
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